Exceedingly Troubled

Its probably too early and exceptionally unhelpful to consider this, but ruminating at night tends to bring these things up.

I'm 20 this year. By the time I'm done with army and start university, I'll be 22 - the girls (yes, they're still girly) will be 18. 4 years apart... not something wonderfully pleasant to consider. Supposing its a 4 year course, I'll be 26 by the time I start work - a rather senior age for a job market entrant - and I hope this won't pose another problem. My medical history/condition already gives too much cause for concern.

Facing it without a special someone would be harder, and my long-held conviction that the vissicitudes of life are only bearable with a soulmate becomes an imperative to find one. Friends and family are lovely, but different... it just is.

But that's still far away. I once told someone "keep the future in its place" - right back at me.