Despondence

Why am I never satisfied with my grades?

I got the grades A, B and C for full A-Level subjects with only a year of formal schooling. But why do I still feel incensed when the university representatives give me a tenuous smile? Why do I feel like murdering the liaison when he said I may not make the grade for UniMelb even though the university's representative already said I did?

I still hate NYJC. They messed up my testimonials and CCA records. They left me to study on my own when I needed them. They didn't even give me, their student, a tutor or subsidise me when I hired one privately. They even charged me with dishonesty. So tell me, why do I still wish for their respect? Top KI student, distinction. There had better be a plaque of commendation for me on College day. Lest I will become an arsonist.

I still feel disappointed. I could have done so much better if my school actually bothered to find good teachers. I hate my school. I hate my teachers. And above all else, I wish I didn't have to hate anyone at all.

But to win your esteem, Xue Wen, will make up for all the injustice inflicted.