Guilt

Despite all the 'healthier' bingeing on wheat & muesli cereals, instead of Mcdonalds and instant noodles, despite all the exercise, I'm actually getting undeniably fat. For the 1st time, I don't feel good about all this. I struggle to do 50 push-ups, and even my ridiculously over-powered legs feel the added weight when it comes to stairs. I sweat more when I walk.

Then again, my studies seem to be coming on well. I'm done with the problems of the global economy, with James Joyce (about as far as I'll probably get) too. I'm pretty much done with fundamentalism as well. Now there's just...

SEA nationalism, WW2, independence, political structures, economy (maybe i'll skip this) and the last ASEAN lecture...

The causes, progression, expansion [Korea & Cuba] and conclusion of the Cold War. The origins of the international economy (skip), revision of the Arab-Israeli & Indo-Pakistani conflicts...

The whole of Great Expectations, key scenes of Othello... and of course my IS. Should I be glad that my 'loving' college isn't examining me for KI?

I'm obsessed with my grades, so sue me. My apathetic history teacher says my essays are about a 'B' grade [aside: YES FINALLY, AGAIN, AFTER SO MANY FRICKKIN TRIES], my latest literature grade is a high 'C', and the skills for poetry/unseen analysis are coming back. I've never managed to pass proper for econs, but this year I got a 'C' as well.

Should I be feeling guilty?