Joking

The previous post was not a joke, nor is this. I'm not the one joking around, fate is - that unseen malicious witch that makes mocks of man's endeavors, who casts all hopes in a darker hue and robs the sparkle from the eyes of Youth.

Today was a complete waste, I didn't achieve any of my objectives. There was little progress in a any of my 4 subjects, unless one counts finding out about one's ignorance a step forward. I don't, simply because I believe in real, material, absolute progress, not "ideological" advancement. Hell, I'm not a friggin armchair philosopher, and I never intend to be one.

I'm just slacking now, and will soon binging on Macs. Right now, my sense of futility outweighs previous concerns about weight, productivity, and the other things I consider important. Tomorrow? I guess I'll resume my tedious, tenuous studies. I am not confident about this, but I still strive to excel in whatever I can excel in, while there flames of willpower still burn.

This blog is going public. I will not shut these things up in a box anymore, but I will make it anonymous. Don't ask me what the point is. I've long ceased to believe that there is a fundamental point in anything - one point is a point only for some other point, a closed web - but I still do what I do because the exigencies of life and living require it... but I might as well do it with a smile.

Ha. Ha.